27 of Them Bad Boys “Are you bleeding on people that didn’t cut you?”

21 Sep 27 of Them Bad Boys “Are you bleeding on people that didn’t cut you?”

Sitting inside a cold construction trailer, hidden between the hills and valleys in Kentucky I began to dive into the subject of emotional baggage and the handicaps that we may walk around with on a daily basis because of these emotions.
As I began my research, I had to approach it both from the secular side and also the spiritual. I do not believe it’s beneficial to choke already hurt or fragile people with religious rhetoric, but I have no choice but to speak honestly and openly about what I feel brings genuine healing and change within damaged people. As for me, have lived year after year turning those broken pieces into a victorious life, and continue to do so on a daily basis.
Until sometime in 2017, that science and psychiatry recognized six emotions and believed that we were simply born with them. These six emotions were basically hardwired into the brain from the time we were born. Those six were: Happiness, Sadness, Fear, Anger, Surprise and Disgust, and that when these emotions fired in our brains that they continue in the same patterns, basically little valleys in our brains throughout our entire lives. Oddly enough the science of addiction says the same thing about those patterns and valleys in the thought process and the brain of those bound in drug addiction.
In 2017, a book entitled Wired introduced a new theory that we actually have 27 emotions we can identify and that those emotions are not so much hardwired into our brains from birth but rather, created in spontaneous parts of the brain at the same time and shaped by many factors. One of those shaping factors being prior life experiences. So, basically science told us what we had already lived through… That our memories, wither traumatic or happy and glittery, puffy clouded and sunshine, affect the way we respond emotionally throughout the rest of our lives.
I spent so much of my life, trying not to deal with ME! I thought that if I just kept getting out of bed every day, and plastering a half smile on my face, if I told funny stories, and tried to control my anger and hurt and resentment the best I could then I would be okay. Eventually, I would find someone strong enough to love me. Eventually I would find the right space to fit into, and I would be okay.
I wouldn’t struggle with drugs, or horrible relationships. I wouldn’t run anyone else off or keep hurting people myself… That never happened, and I’m confident that there will never be the right people, or places or job or hobby… you get the picture… for you either.
I recently saw something on a social media site that said, “ If you don’t heal from what hurt you, you’ll end up bleeding on people that didn’t cut you.”
Ain’t that the truth!
We are made up of our experiences and our environment. Most of the time we cannot change the experiences that made the memories. Sometimes the memories come at the worst times. When we’re doing good and acting halfway “normal”, they keep us up at night and threaten out sanity and our relationships sometimes that isolate us and become almost paralyzing.
There is hope! Just because we may know what walking around as a functioning emotionally handicapped person is like… by no means are we sentenced to a life without the possibility of change.
There’s this really interesting woman in the Bible… I know most people think about woman in the Bible as saintly and locked into a life of pure servanthood and boredom, but there’s a woman that goes to the well everyday to draw water in the hottest part of the day. She goes alone, because the emotional baggage or handicaps she walks around with leads her to make some bad decisions. She doesn’t have “normal’ relationships with anyone, because she can’t. Until she meets a man that isn’t supposed to be where He is. This man isn’t supposed to even talk to her. However, He speaks to he as if He has loved her forever, as if he is not disgusted by her mistakes or by her struggles… because…

He has loved her… since before she was born.
He isn’t fazed one iota by her mistakes or struggles.
He isn’t bothered by her opinions of what He’s telling her, He knows that her identity is not in the relationships she’s had that failed, or even the hurt she’s caused for other people.
While most people thought she was beneath them and not worth much…
He told her… everything she ever did… and LOVED HER ANYWAYS!!!!

His name was Jesus. Her name was Photini. (Aka: the woman at the well)
She went down in history, referred to as the 13 apostle of Jesus. She led multiple thousands to the knowledge of God.

She had an encounter with the boundless love of God and remembered her worth… She remembered who she was before the emotions and the memories threatened her sanity… She took a drink of Living Water, and changed the world.