Broken Hearted

09 Sep Broken Hearted

As I sat in my home office working I watched Lindsey (who was now an adult) drive drown the lane in her Blue Monte Carlo. This was her first new car, boy was it sharp.
She came in the back door with a woman that I had never seen before. They both had big smiles on their faces, they said Hi as they walked by and headed up the steps to Lindsey’s room.
I sat behind my desk with the most gut wrenching something is terribly wrong Mom feeling that you could ever image. I waited a few minutes trying to pull my thoughts together and get enough strength to walk up the steps to her room. My legs felt like I was climbing a mountain, I knew that I was in a battle for Lindsey’s life!
The other woman who we will call “D’ was laying across the bed as Lindsey packed her bags.
This was my beautiful, gifted, precious daughter packing her bags to leave home. She said it was just for a couple days but this Mommma knew it was much more.
My heart was breaking, how can I stop her? I was pleading with God “help me” “don’t let her go”! As these thoughts were racing through my mind I looked into the eyes of D and it was if I was looking at Satan himself. D simple looked back at me and smiled.
I asked Lindsey to come downstairs and talk to me, we went into my bathroom. I begged, I pleaded, I cried, PLEASE do not leave with her. With a smile on her face Lindsey looked at me and said I’m leaving.
I said “if you walk out that door it will be the worst mistake of your life”.
As she drove away, I slid down the wall in my bathroom and pleaded for her very life.
This day will forever be etched in my mind as Lindsey spent the next 14 years in and out of addiction, jail and prison.

I’m sharing our journey to give you hope and to let you know that we now walk in Victory,

Follow us through the valley’s and the mountains.
Lindsey was created to soar like and Eagle. Each and every day that we face with someone in addiction we must see them for who God created them to be, not who they are while they are in addiction, bad relationships or anything that is detrimental to their lives.

I chose each and every day to see Lindsey as the Eagle that she was created to be, she is Extra Ordinary.
When I went to jail to see her I chose to see the Eagle
When I sat in court and heard them sentence her to prison I seen an Eagle
When I picked her up off the streets or pulled her out of a drug hole I seen an Eagle
When she was screaming at me I seen an Eagle
When I sat with her detoxing I seen an Eagle

No matter what you are facing get this in your belly, you have to See IT, before you See IT!!!!